This is my last entry. I don't have time for this stuff anymore and it has become less interesting. I have been gettin into a lot of stuff ad i'm pretty tired right now so i'm just gonna say so long.  This has been fin but now I have more things to do instead of keeping this up. It's not like I dont like it I just dont have time so far be it from me for you to stop! It's a great thing  I have just been going thru some mind changes and this is one of the things I am going to stop....  I hope everyone is great!!! Luv y'all a lot.

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wow! I have not commented in a long time! sorry guyz! i have been kinda busy with GSA and the Miss OFS pageant. Yeppers! I am in my high school pageant. It's a lot to keep up with and the director of it is kinda hard to deal with but it's still fun to chill with my girls! I love you girls! Well I got a myspace. Yea i know right...finally! So go there  http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=4821231&Mytoken=20050110183417

thats the link.... Sorry I don't know how to make it look pretty!

I hope everyone is doin alright... I'm hanging in there. I don't really have any guys right now. The whole relationship/more than a friendship at least thing isnt really working...   O well I guess i'll find the right one sometime...who knows when....

 Me

Lemme tell ya bout my funny day yesterday along with my day today. Sorry it's long!!!!!!  but its funny....

Yesterday, my mom must've had an impact on me coz she started off messing up things too....like her forgeting to put the cup in the coffee machine resulting in the coffee going all over the counter. Well for me, it started with me forgeting my cell coz I forgot I had one... I do that sometimes. lol.  So my dad brought it to me later in the day. Anyway the high part of my day was when I was walking to PE.... See...my class before is spanish which is upstairs so when I was going downstair I lost balance and fell. I could hear gasps behind me but I was so weak! I couldnt stop laughing at myself! I didnt get hurt coz I fell on my knee... crystal thought I was a retard laughing at myself like I did.... but yea and then I got to PE and noticed my cool tie belt wasnt around my waist so I secretly ran out in the hall without a pass and looked all down the hall. I didnt have any luck finding it tho.... so  I come back in the gym and jus hang with my friends and then ashley goes... isnt that ur belt pointing to this one guy in our class.... Rashawn had it around his neck claiming it was his! I was like omg so I get it ....interesting stuff there.... and then Pe gets over and I stand in the lunch line for like 10 minutes! Exhausted I get out to Crystal's car and see that I dont that I dont have one of my gym shoes ( nikes)..... Quickly I run back inside and look everywhere.... the lunch line, all the halls I went down, and then the locker room. In there I find my shoe laying on the ground... I then run back, in my heels I might add, to crystal's car... Ok this is gettin too long.... so I wont write anymore about my crazy day bc Im sure you get the jist.

My day today was really great! I did my audition at 9:00 for the performing arts department of Governor's School.... I think it went great. I did the best I could on every part.... we'll see what happens! I went to Doumar's with my family and we had a great time!  Then I came home and started to practice my chorus music for GSA... I started to play around and do the part when some ppl go to the high C... so I attempted thinking im not gonna hit it at all... and it comes out the best it has ever done before! I was like OMG! So I try to go higher  and I can! I went to the E above high C with no strain or problem! I was SHOCKED!  Then I put in the cd of the Queen of the Night aria...an extremely high song....and I start singing it and hitting the notes! It was like...a dream.... lol  I've never gone that high before on pitch! So then I put in WICKED.... a musical... and sing DEFY GRAVITY. In this song Idina Menzel belts very high and I started playing around with that too.... and I belted the E (the one right below high C)! I couldn't believe it! Yea today was a really lucky day for me... I hope it keeps going this well.  

Everything seemed to not be going that well for me a few days ago but my life is a lot better now.  

Leave some luv ~     me

ok the thing about the guy. we r jus gonna be friends and i think it's better like that. yea lol i do write deep sometimes.... but i'm gonna jus leave u with this quote! i loved it. I got it from my friend britney! thx girly!

the [ Only ] peOple that yOu  
       n E e d  in yOur life *are
       the  Ones who prOve that they
       need yOu in theirs...

always

it's about a guy  lol

you know how when u cant have something or someone you want it or them more.... now that u can have me do u not want me anymore

i wonder these things a lot. i wonder if my time spent on u is the right thing to do. yes, i like u a lot i jus think sometimes. the first day i saw u i wanted to meet u.... i wanted to be your friend. then my friend helped us get closer. i'm so glad she did. you are such a great guy and i think about u a whole lot. i get chills when i think about u and see u in person.... good chills that make me warm at the same time. i want to hang out with u more and get to know u more. i'm sorry i havent got to go anywhere with u. it's not that i dont want to.... its that i cant bc of my life. the life i chose... a great life but a busy one. my busy schedule will hopefully not come between us. i wonder sometimes how u feel. how u write something if u wrote something like this. everyday when i go home i miss u. i hope u feel the same way. if u dont i guess it's ok. i wonder again and again.....

now that u can have me do u still want me or is it too different or wierd?

 me

p.s.  today was a wierd day so i decided to talk about this.... now i bet ur like she has issues.... o well i guess i do